(==)17 Years Ago(==) Before(==)After(==) [Part 1]
Exactly 17 years ago from today, I took my first breath on Earth. It was the day LORD brought me out on the Earth.
I was larger in size compared to any other child in the ward. But He, the Almighty one brought me out of my mother's womb safely.
I turned away from Him and sinned against Him ever since I was born. Even so, He blessed me abundantly. He raised me up through my parents.
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I was a jerk when I was younger, during my primary education. I abused words, I abused my friends, I abused my freedom. Nobody liked me, even though they did not say it. My mom used to tell me complaints from other parents. It was all about complaints from their children about me.
At that time, none of my friends actually celebrated a birthday with me. I used to shout around that it was my birthday, but when I realized nobody actually care, I kept quiet ever since.
That was why I worked so hard. I changed myself, my appearance, my speaking, my attitudes, just to let myself being recognized, being noticed. I began to rebel, to act rough, to act tough, to use ugly words, to humiliate myself.
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I worshiped other gods other than LORD the only God. I did shameful things. I used to steal, I used to drink, I used to gamble, I used to obsess with pornography and sex. I was easily angered, I denied His existence.
However, He never abandoned me, not even once. How great He is! He was persevere to make me notice Him. But I never do. He constantly poured down His blessings on me, but I took them for granted. I gave the other gods the credit.
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I was still being ignored, just as how I ignored Him. I fed up, and so my miserable relationship life went on to my secondary. I thought I could start anew.
But it was far worse. I couldn't communicate. I couldn't get in the gang.
I had very bad reputation, as well as appearance. I was a nerd, was never the popular guy. I could only find myself in my scout gang. That was why I worked hard for my leader position, thought that I could be recognized that way.
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I entered MBS, a Christian-religious-based school. I attended Chapel Periods. But I still did not notice Him.
He constantly showed Himself before me. He sent everyone for me. He sent me friends, friends that recognize me, hoping that I will recognize Him as they do. But I always turn Him down.
But He never gave up. He did miracles in my unrecognized, unnoticed life. He turned it back when my life was upside down. He loves me, but I did know. We were far apart.
[世界上最远的距离不是生与死的距离 而是我站在你面前你不知道我爱你]
[Translation: The world furthest distance is not the distance of life and death, but when I stand before you, you don't know that I love you]
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First time in MBS, I found Lung Chuin, one of my classmate when I was in standard 6.
He went for scout meeting just as I do. However, we couldn't really get along during the first year. He was in a different patrol/team with me and he was in a different class with me.
In my second year, I met Benedict. He was very close to Lung Chuin. That very year brought us together. They were in the same class with me. We were elected to be patrol leaders that very year. Ever since, we have endless conversations. Three of us stuck together every moment in school.
Later, I got to know Chuan Zheng, Lap Bann and Voon Keong. I realized Chuan Zheng's existence only when He was elected as a patrol leader, as well as Benedict.
Chuan Zheng, probably my greatest rival during my Form 2 life. He was the Troop Leader, which position that I wanted so badly. We always had quarrels, particularly on scout matters. But every quarrel strengthened our friendship.
I knew Lap Bann before Benendict, Chuan Zheng and Voon Keong. We were in the same patrol when we were Form 1. He's always the silent, hardworking one. He never say a thing in whatever he do even if it bothers him. He's tough, probably the toughest among us. He's well disciplined and never seemed to be able to mix with lazy bumps like us. Within him lies a great......hilarious self of him. Or probably horny, haha!
Voon Keong, my patrol second. He was one of the greatest friend I ever have. He was very a supportive friend and assistance. He's probably the only one who recognizes me at that time. He believed in me as his patrol leader. He did what I always wanted. He even, to boast, laid his life on my hand, in every decision I did.
We were and are good friends and great rivals, in both curriculum and co-curriculum.
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[END OF PART 1]
I was larger in size compared to any other child in the ward. But He, the Almighty one brought me out of my mother's womb safely.
I turned away from Him and sinned against Him ever since I was born. Even so, He blessed me abundantly. He raised me up through my parents.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I was a jerk when I was younger, during my primary education. I abused words, I abused my friends, I abused my freedom. Nobody liked me, even though they did not say it. My mom used to tell me complaints from other parents. It was all about complaints from their children about me.
At that time, none of my friends actually celebrated a birthday with me. I used to shout around that it was my birthday, but when I realized nobody actually care, I kept quiet ever since.
That was why I worked so hard. I changed myself, my appearance, my speaking, my attitudes, just to let myself being recognized, being noticed. I began to rebel, to act rough, to act tough, to use ugly words, to humiliate myself.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I worshiped other gods other than LORD the only God. I did shameful things. I used to steal, I used to drink, I used to gamble, I used to obsess with pornography and sex. I was easily angered, I denied His existence.
However, He never abandoned me, not even once. How great He is! He was persevere to make me notice Him. But I never do. He constantly poured down His blessings on me, but I took them for granted. I gave the other gods the credit.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I was still being ignored, just as how I ignored Him. I fed up, and so my miserable relationship life went on to my secondary. I thought I could start anew.
But it was far worse. I couldn't communicate. I couldn't get in the gang.
I had very bad reputation, as well as appearance. I was a nerd, was never the popular guy. I could only find myself in my scout gang. That was why I worked hard for my leader position, thought that I could be recognized that way.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I entered MBS, a Christian-religious-based school. I attended Chapel Periods. But I still did not notice Him.
He constantly showed Himself before me. He sent everyone for me. He sent me friends, friends that recognize me, hoping that I will recognize Him as they do. But I always turn Him down.
But He never gave up. He did miracles in my unrecognized, unnoticed life. He turned it back when my life was upside down. He loves me, but I did know. We were far apart.
[世界上最远的距离不是生与死的距离 而是我站在你面前你不知道我爱你]
[Translation: The world furthest distance is not the distance of life and death, but when I stand before you, you don't know that I love you]
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First time in MBS, I found Lung Chuin, one of my classmate when I was in standard 6.
He went for scout meeting just as I do. However, we couldn't really get along during the first year. He was in a different patrol/team with me and he was in a different class with me.
In my second year, I met Benedict. He was very close to Lung Chuin. That very year brought us together. They were in the same class with me. We were elected to be patrol leaders that very year. Ever since, we have endless conversations. Three of us stuck together every moment in school.
Later, I got to know Chuan Zheng, Lap Bann and Voon Keong. I realized Chuan Zheng's existence only when He was elected as a patrol leader, as well as Benedict.
Chuan Zheng, probably my greatest rival during my Form 2 life. He was the Troop Leader, which position that I wanted so badly. We always had quarrels, particularly on scout matters. But every quarrel strengthened our friendship.
I knew Lap Bann before Benendict, Chuan Zheng and Voon Keong. We were in the same patrol when we were Form 1. He's always the silent, hardworking one. He never say a thing in whatever he do even if it bothers him. He's tough, probably the toughest among us. He's well disciplined and never seemed to be able to mix with lazy bumps like us. Within him lies a great......hilarious self of him. Or probably horny, haha!
Voon Keong, my patrol second. He was one of the greatest friend I ever have. He was very a supportive friend and assistance. He's probably the only one who recognizes me at that time. He believed in me as his patrol leader. He did what I always wanted. He even, to boast, laid his life on my hand, in every decision I did.
We were and are good friends and great rivals, in both curriculum and co-curriculum.
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[END OF PART 1]
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