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1 Conrithians 1:27-29 [ 27 But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28 He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, 29 so that no one may boast before him. ] A month, it's as long as a month that I last did my quiet time. I was so filled with arrogance, self-confidence, I thought I can just go on without spending much of my time with Him. My life was in a total mess since then, in fact, it was a total mess from the very beginning. I doubted, therefore my prayers were not answered. I was so arrogant, He couldn't put His eyes on all the shameful things I did. But He never abandoned me, not even once. Instead, there was always His gentle voice whispering:" Come back my son, talk to Me!" Yet, I prayed insincerely, as morning prayers was not more than just a daily routine for me. I have to drag myself there, and...

I threw myself on my bed. My face was wet, tear tracks clearly seen. I couldn't stop crying. Every thought of mine stabbed me deeper, causing my tear to flow like a broken damp. I'm afraid that I will go There, where he will not belong. Out of love, I cried! I prayed so hard, pleading LORD to answer my questions:" Where were You when I needed You to defend me?! Where were You?! Have You forsaken me? Have You forgot what You promised?!" Doubts struck me hard enough, hard enough to crush my tiny faith, frayed into pieces. "Yea! Maybe he is right about You! You are just some lies told by some idiots! The so-called You Words is just a stupid book written by some nothing-to-do people. Why did I trust in You in the beginning? Shouldn't even have known You in the first place. Who am I praying to? To You or to something imaginative and doesn't even exist?! Talk to me! TELL ME!" "Who am I to You?! Your child You said. But will a Father not defend His chi...

Tonight, I watched a movie on TV2, it was about how a group of unlucky firemen risked their life in order to save victims from road accidents, suicides, and of course, fire. Towards the end of the story, the group of firemen (a firewoman) was trapped in a seriously burning factory. The fire was burning enormously fierce and the vision was poor. The fire reigned over the factory mercilessly, burning the place with heat, exhausting them. There was a scene where a fire hose with its water still turned on left spraying alone, unable to fight against the exploding fire and burned into ash. Two women were reported trapped in the factory. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Imagine yourself as the two women trapped in fire, helplessly, waiting for death, waiting to be devoured by fire. That describes Hell , in fact, Hell is far worse. If you are thrown into Hell by God , surely, there is only one option, eternal death . No other option. You will be spiritual...

Today, 20 minutes before my tuition class ends, all of sudden, it rained cats and dogs (someone taught me this idiom, I hate idioms. Imagine-lah, if God send cats and dogs from Heaven , SPCA will be in big trouble, am I right? No wonder it is to describe a heavy downpour, it floods SPCA, haha!), I was like, "My Goodness, how am I gonna go home? Wonder she's home." So, for my and her sake, I prayed:" Father Lord , You send this rain Lord , will you stop it Lord . Stop the rain Lord , so that I will be able to go home without getting wet." Few seconds later, I doubted:"Is it really gonna stop?" Have you ever doubted His power? You always pray, and ask for something you want, then you doubt:"Will it come true?" Matthew 21:22 [If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.] Matthew 21:22 is one of my favourite verse. I always have them in my mind every time I pray. But, as normal, my weak, tiny faith had always failed me. I d...