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1 Conrithians 1:27-29 [ 27 But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28 He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, 29 so that no one may boast before him. ] A month, it's as long as a month that I last did my quiet time. I was so filled with arrogance, self-confidence, I thought I can just go on without spending much of my time with Him. My life was in a total mess since then, in fact, it was a total mess from the very beginning. I doubted, therefore my prayers were not answered. I was so arrogant, He couldn't put His eyes on all the shameful things I did. But He never abandoned me, not even once. Instead, there was always His gentle voice whispering:" Come back my son, talk to Me!" Yet, I prayed insincerely, as morning prayers was not more than just a daily routine for me. I have to drag myself there, and...

I threw myself on my bed. My face was wet, tear tracks clearly seen. I couldn't stop crying. Every thought of mine stabbed me deeper, causing my tear to flow like a broken damp. I'm afraid that I will go There, where he will not belong. Out of love, I cried! I prayed so hard, pleading LORD to answer my questions:" Where were You when I needed You to defend me?! Where were You?! Have You forsaken me? Have You forgot what You promised?!" Doubts struck me hard enough, hard enough to crush my tiny faith, frayed into pieces. "Yea! Maybe he is right about You! You are just some lies told by some idiots! The so-called You Words is just a stupid book written by some nothing-to-do people. Why did I trust in You in the beginning? Shouldn't even have known You in the first place. Who am I praying to? To You or to something imaginative and doesn't even exist?! Talk to me! TELL ME!" "Who am I to You?! Your child You said. But will a Father not defend His chi...

Happy Father's Day!

"What are the factors that causes prayers go unanswered?" the pastor said. I didn't know "unforgiveness" is one of the factor, that's why most of my prayers go unanswered. I do have someone that I could not forgive, or I should say, a family that I could not forgive. It is kinda hard for me to forgive them, for all the damage and impact that they had cause to my family. Wrecking our house, threatening us, mistreating us. Matthew 5:23,24 ["Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift. ] I can still remember the scene where they were wrecking my grandma's house. Using a 12lbs hammer, they knocked open the gate, inside, children and old folks, frightened. Fortunately, the thick wooden door held them from coming in. The husband of that family, he was like a mad co...

Today, 20 minutes before my tuition class ends, all of sudden, it rained cats and dogs (someone taught me this idiom, I hate idioms. Imagine-lah, if God send cats and dogs from Heaven , SPCA will be in big trouble, am I right? No wonder it is to describe a heavy downpour, it floods SPCA, haha!), I was like, "My Goodness, how am I gonna go home? Wonder she's home." So, for my and her sake, I prayed:" Father Lord , You send this rain Lord , will you stop it Lord . Stop the rain Lord , so that I will be able to go home without getting wet." Few seconds later, I doubted:"Is it really gonna stop?" Have you ever doubted His power? You always pray, and ask for something you want, then you doubt:"Will it come true?" Matthew 21:22 [If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.] Matthew 21:22 is one of my favourite verse. I always have them in my mind every time I pray. But, as normal, my weak, tiny faith had always failed me. I d...

Today, I walked around the corridor in front of my grandma's house. I was waiting for someone to call, or maybe, message me. I was troubled, not as troubled as the one I'm waiting for. My grandma's house is on the fifth floor, I can get a pretty clear view there. Someone was playing a kite, probably 300 meter or more away from my grandma's house. I thought the one playing the kite was kinda stupid playing in place surrounded by trees. I could see the kite floating up and down, powerless, helpless. In a narrow place like that, surrounded by tree, it's kinda hard for the kite to actually fly high. In the end, the kite got stuck on some branches, never came down again. In our life, sometimes we can find ourselves depart from a narrow place just like the kite. Peer pressure, financial, relationships, and etc. And when we depart from that point, we might face a lot of problems or obstacles, slowing us down, helplessly, powerlessly. Then when we started to find ourselves ...

Today I was born, Today God blew in the breath of life on me, Just like God did to Adam. Today I celebrated, Today I blew the flame off the candle on the cake, Just like God did to Adam. Today I am blessed, Today God blew dusts and haze off me, Just like I did to the candle. Today I am more than blessed, To get to know that they care, To get to recognize myself, To get to recognize my LORD , To get the happiest day of my life. Happy Birthday, Kar Wai and thank You, Jesus ! I love You ! And so are you, my beloved friends. I dedicate this very poem: To my LORD who loves and blesses me abundantly, To Pooi San who organized and planned the celebration, To Wai Jeann&Lung Chuin who gave me a big surprize, To Ben&Voon Keong for that lovely handphone holder, To Chuan Zheng&Zhi Hao for skipping their tuition classes to celebrate with me, To Lap Bann&Voon Keong who came but didn't sing with us, To Abigail who rushed for the celebration and that lovely wallet. And to...

i dragged my worn out body came to house of the vineyard owner i dragged myself towards the door it was small and narrow i knocked at the door no one answered i knocked again the door did not open again i knocked i could only hear the knocking sound here i knocked again He opened the door i asked can you help me? i'm thirsty i'm hungry i'm suffering here i have nothing He said gently I have nothing to give you But you can have my Son He is the water drink it and you will never get thirsty He is the bread eat it and you will never get hungry He will bring salvation receive it and you will never suffer again believe in Him and you will have everything [John 4:14 " but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."] [Matthew 26:26 "......Jesus took bread, gave thanks and broke it,......, "Take and eat; this is my body.""]

O Lord I have no word Suitable to praise You Lord For all great things You did for me Lord O Lord You are powerful Lord You are above all warlord You have power over all lord O Lord Your blessings I can't afford Your love I can't afford Your passion I can't afford O Lord King of all king Lord of all lord God of all god I can't stand before You Lord So I bow down before You Lord And humble me before You Lord I praise You for Your grace, My God!

...and you question God -'why me?'... always look at the bigger picture.... A day without the Lord- Is a day wasted.

"Yes!" "No!" "Look, I have something better for you!"