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ODB 25 Oct 2012 The author said:"...Sometimes the busyness of everyday life blocks our view. We take for granted His amazing work in our lives. We lose the wonder of the cross. We lose the wonder of the cross. We forget the privilege of being His child. We neglect the pleasure of His presence and miss the beauty of His creation. What can I say? Nothing, because Iam at fault here. Just last night there was so many grudges in my heart. I felt like the whole world is against me. My heart was cursing at everything and it burns with ander, which is fear and worry in disguise. I realise I was worried because I don't trust God. I blame God for such ugly situation. While all things came like a tsunami, I forgot His splendor. I forgot that my God is was bigger than this. I forgot that my God is more than able in this. Defeated. I realised I did not enjoy. In the midst of all these I entrapped myself with expectations of achievement. I was not set free. How can I enjoy when I...

ODB 23 Oct 2012 The journey back from workshop was a terribly long one. Lamentation 3:15,17&18 best describe my feeling:" He has filled me with bitter herbs and given me gall to drink......I have been deprived of peace; I have forgotten what prosperity is. So I say:' My splendor is gone and all I had hoped from the Lord." I really wished my dad would love me the way he loves others. As I was talking to my mom and she tells me all that my dad suffered outside my house, she also tells me the sentimental part of my dad whom sound strange to me. The cheezy, loving, gentle dad is not the dad that I know. Ever since young I'm dying to live out to be a son after his heart, but it never seems enough. Even that lazy, worthless uncle of mine seems to get more defending praise than I do. I really don't know what my dad is expecting of me, the impossible? The sole reason why I would be jealous of my sister ever since young was because dad praises her even if she...

ODB 22 Oct 2012 There's a thousand things that I ought to give thanks, more than what my mortal brain can recall. But it's funny that I don't do it often enough. Today alone I have so many to give thanks to God. When Pei Juan of 1st year texted that she would be able to join Family Camp, I shouted for joy. I thank GOd because that really lifted my spirit. I thank God for getting rid one thing that had been bothering me. Wang Ching wanted to come for Family Camp and his Islamic background put me in a dillemma. While we were squeezing our brain trying to weight good out of the bad, Wang Ching decided that he wants to celebrate Hari Raya Haji. A part of me feel sorry that he couldn't make it, but a bigger part of me felt relieved that I have one less thing to worry about. I thank God for dinner tonight, for he blessed Gilbert so much to bless me a dinner at Shnagri-La. I thank God I could dig out some time to come for today's devotion. I thank God for the place ...

OBD 21 Oct 2012 Today as I went through YouTube for some voting videos as preparation for MAD Week, I stumbled upon a clip that broke me into tears. My soul is weary and all that Jesus asks of me is to hold on. But the storms come and the rain hits, I feel tired. If Jesus is to declare today "harvest day", I would want Jesus to find me still holding on to direct people to Him. If He is to ask me to present each fruit that I have gathered, I would like to present my peace, kindness and self-control. So let me sow to the spirit and reap eternal life. Therefore, to remind myself, I ought to test my own actions, without comparing myself to someone else. In all that I do, I should ask myself, "Am I sowing to please my flesh or the Spirit? Am I going to reap destruction or eternal life?" Let me not be weary in doing good, for at the proper time, I will reap a harvest if I do not give up.

ODB 20 Oct 2012 Today's passage seems to peak to me more clearly.My heart lacks peace as CF Family Camp draws near. We need about 15 more participants to cover the numbers. I totally did not expect this when we booked the place for 40 persons. For a moment I feel regret to have made such hasty decision with so much faith. But somehow today's passage seems to be telling me, "Hey, take this as a test of faith." Then I started asking myself, how would I react if God is not going to fill up the remaining spots? What am I going to do? Am I going to be angry at God , or am i going to continue to love Him the same way? God works at His own timing, let me trust Him, after all when the committee prayed, we asked God to make this camp the way He wants it to be. God has made so much miracles for this camp, should I point my finger at God for one thing that He wouldn't do the way I want it? The passage says, "...delay, if we accept it, can produce the quieter virt...

John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. Jesus has come to give us a life to the full, so that we can live it. But how can we live life to the full when we are so caught up by our own guilt and worries? Didn't Jesus come to set us free from sins by paying the penalty for all of us? Then why are we sometimes questioning ourselves, "Should I do this? Should I eat that? What have I done? Am I guilty? What can I do to make it up to God? How many good works is enough? Is it ok if I missed my prayer yesterday?" I want to live a life to the fullest then I do not have time to think all these questions which Christ Himself has already solved for me. To be truthful, there isn't ENOUGH good work that we can do to make it up for our mistakes, there isn't a way to cover back our prayers, there isn't enough money to cleanse your guilt, there isn't enough that we can do to please Hi...

ODB 19 Oct 2012 Titus 3:3 (ESV) "For we ourselves were once......slaves to various passions and pleasures..." This part of the verse stayed with me particularly. I clearly know why. But I do not wish to stay on it. I feel sorry for myself nevertheless. Though Christ has changed many aspects of my life, I have to admit that flesh is one hard thing to deal with. I'm glad that Christ came to save us (Titus 3:4-7) and I ought to be ready for every good work (Titus 3:1) . I really take pride and gratitude for every gift that God has blessed me with. I thank God that I can speak publicly comfortably, I can do many and achieve many that others may find difficult. And I possess that passion and love for God and His people. I always thought I have had enough gift, but after reading today's passage, it gave me another thought. "Just because a skill is not needed right now doesn't mean it never will be." Maybe I should be open to God to put in me various gift...

OBD 18 Oct 2012 I guess sometimes even when I see unfairness that happens to me, I too will ask, "Why God, why?!" And we tend to think we deserves more of God. But little do we know, even as we think like that, we started to focus on ourselves rather than God Himself. I think this is a great reminder to all of us, we were all "by-standers" who were "standing around" before God came and gave us a "job". We all forget that i twas God's grace that gave us purpose, so I guess He totally has the right to give the same to anyone else. When we start to think that we deserve more blessing and things, aren't we in a way saying:" I found God and worked hard for Him, I DEMAND God to give me." I think I need to keep reminding myself that I am saved by God's grace and only on Him that I should turn my eyes on. ~~~ TURN YOUR EYES UPON JESUS, LOOK FULL IN HIS WONDERFUL FACE, AND THE THINGS OF EARTH WILL GROW STRANGELY DIM, ...

It's weird when almost every post for the start of the month always start with "It's been a long time since I last posted." HAHA! But well, the fact remains, it's been a long time since I last posted. I guess being FEMS Coordinator challenges me further that I ever expected. The semester kick-started with CF Night. It was truly taxing and demanded every bit of my strength. I wonder why it actually eats me up more than any event. However, I truly enjoyed it nevertheless. After the event, I'm sick until now. I was worried. CF, PBBC, UFO, almost everywhere needs me to put my feet in. I would be lying if I tell you I do not wish to be MC for any event that's going on in Campus. I would really enjoy doing that. But if I can't even handle what is already given to me, how can I want to do anything else? So I lay low on this, and soon people just doesn't approach me for MC anymore. Well, seriously it hurts. I was popular, and I have to let it go. H...