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=) Was so busy, I can at last write on my blog 18 days after my actual birthday. Many things happened, (and many more things didn't) I just have no idea how to put them in place. Some little updates: I'm 20! (DUH!) I'm still working! Like a snake...the lazy one...not the crafty one. I'm still waiting for my iPod Touch. I didn't tell her, and I wish it stays that way. I got USM offer! Some course I have no idea at all. I'm going USM!!! Some isolated place. My birthday celebration was awesome! =) It was on a Friday, so yea, A HUGE JAM all the way home. Traffic, I mean, not fruit jam. But guess what, everyone was waiting for me! None has eaten until I came back, TOUCHED! And it was 8.45pm! I got a real thick chocolate cake and I love it! ~~ My uncle got married! My new aunt is now pregnant and I have 3 extra lovely cousins, ALL OF THE SUDDEN! I'm gonna have another one soon! LOL Surrounded by cousins, ah! I just love my family! ~~ God is just AWESOME! Just inde...

I could clearly remember the first Chapel Retreat I ever joined. I was merely 1 year old in Christ but I could never forget the sweetest thing I've ever heard. ~~~ Chaplain:" God made us on the sixth day, so where we were before the sixth day?" Just out of no where, I never thought I could have answered:" In His mind." ~~ Hahaha! Isn't that sweet? And I uttered this in complete oblivion and yes, I told myself the sweetest thing I've ever heard. Gen. 1:29-30 Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food. And to all the beasts of the earth and all the birds in the sky and all the creatures that move along the ground—everything that has the breath of life in it—I give every green plant for food.” And it was so. God spent the first 5 days of existence to layout the perfect place to have us live in. He spent the first day making the heaven and earth...

It's been 3 years, without me knowing. It's my birthday today, at least, according to Lunar Calendar. My root as a Chinese, everything that defines me, changes in such short 3 years. I never see myself in the place I am now 3 years back. I could never ever see so much, back before these 3 years. I see myself cursing Christians, calling them hypocrite, holding back their desires by their God (well now, our God!) . HYPOCRITES!! I would call them. You are born an animal and this life is all you have, enjoy it! Fulfill your desires, satisfy your lust! I laughed at them! How would I know I was scorning the same group of "unusual" people that now I put myself in? I never believe religion would change a human's nature. At least, I never knew God would change me. I never believe a Man that is not even physically here would do anything more incredible than to change my life. I never knew God Himself would be enough to satisfy me more than any desire, greed and lu...

Father I pray and I ask, When so many people are doing what they think is right, that I may do what you think is right. When so many people are being hurt, that I may reach down to the depth of their souls. When so many people are being violent and offensive, that I may venture to comfort their hearts. When so many people are judging the way of another, that I may be compassionate to both victim and offender. When so many people are laughing at the truth, that I may stay focus on what’s true. When so many people are suffering, that I may share their pain and carry them through. When so many people are paying evil with evil, that I may turn the other cheek. When so many people are celebrating the death of a brute, that I may celebrate the death of my King. When so many people are heading their certain death, that I may stand in their place to die for them. When so many “I” appear in my writing, that You may stand out and be glorify, that I may stand in AWE. For You must increase and I d...

Fear I know not, For in You my trust is rooted. Worry I carry not, For in You my need is provided. Despair I hold not, For in You my hope is set upon. Shame I feel not, For in You my sins are forgiven. Death I will not, For in You my life is given.

If I’m an artist, the sky is my painting board, Praises I will paint to the every atmosphere.  If I’m a singer, my soul is my loudspeaker, Mercy I will sing every step I take.  If I’m a runner, Your Word is my feet, Truth I will run, every pace rooted in You.  If I’m an engineer, My Lord is my stairway, Reconciliation I will build upon the Cornerstone builders rejected.  If I’m a doctor, Your blood is my medicine, Wounds I will heal to the deepest of the heart.  If I’m a sinner, Your resurrection is my death. New creation I will be to the end of eternity.  If I’m just myself, You are my pursuit and love, You alone I will love, with all my heart, my mind, my strength and my soul.

=/ how can I put them in words? O God, the power You put in me, the capability that many would envy, sometimes I wish I do not possess them. So many people are putting their hopes and expectation on me, and what I fear, I'm only mere human who needs You so badly, will fail and disappoint them. I'm not gonna pretend I'm tough and invincible, simply because I'm not. I wish You did not choose me to be capable of bearing the cross and drink that cup. It is simply not my will to do anything. But my will is not my own Lord. Even Jesus, who was going to be prosecuted, to be nailed onto the cross, submitted to Your will. He asked for that cup to be removed from Him, yet He drank it all. [ Luke 22:42 , Matthew 26:42 ] I'm in a better state than He was, I guess I have no reason to run away from this responsibility You put in me even before I was born. I'm proud to say You are my Lord, I wanna make you proud of me as You would to many other people. Hence, it is not really ...