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Genesis 2:18 The LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be ALONE . I will make a helper suitable for him.” Do you realise how much we need to have fellowship with each other? We are "engineered" to constantly look for relationship with one another. That's why you often see emo status from me, LOL. Jokes aside, there's one relationship we have to make right with, and all the rest will come into perspective. Unless we fix this ONE relationship, we will never have any right relationship. As broken as this world is, so is our relationship. Whether friendship, romance, family or even discipleship. We often feel hurt, betrayed and disappointed. Does that mean that is no hope, no love and I shall have no faith? And so we choose to run, to avoid, to hide. We fortify ourselves, not letting anyone in, so that no one can hurt us anymore. However, things just don't turn out as we expected. We grew weary watching against anyone who would come and hurt us. Why can't

I think I lost the purpose of writing this. It's always about mememememememe! When did my redeemed life become a life livin for myself. I'm writing this for the glory of God, not me! In my posts I often posture myself as a man of faith. But i really am not! I don't think I trust God enough. Yea, I don't. Because as I was singing "when I survey the cross", I was thinking about my Earthly father. I thought of the kinda love he has for me yet he doesn't wanna tell me. I was touched when he did not even think twice to offer to take a day off and willing to drive me all the way to Penang. Then I think about the time when he was on his sick bed. I think about the moment he rejected me so strongly when I first shared the Gospel with him. You know, God, I actually stopped believing that he could be saved and to come and witness my baptism. Then on, I never talked about the Gospel with him anymore. I'm just thinking, do I love my father enough to give him the b

I like the way I designed my blog header, where the words and the crucifixion fits perfectly for each other... I was only less than 3 months old when I put that banner together on my newly learn Illustrator skill. But idea came to me so abundantly at the time, I kept working on it for two weeks. LOL But the banner somehow means differently to me right now. When I was making the banner, the crucifixion meant so so much to me. The sense of awe in me just couldn't stopping praising Him with the same lips I used to curse Him. But as I walk further and further away, this sense of awe slowly grew into stability where I kept struggling to keep my passion and my focus on Him. That blurry image of the crucifixion is like the image I try so hard to get it right in focus. As I walk, some times I lose sight of Christ, thinking I need to depend on my own, working my way and my own holiness, hoping it would please God or glorify Him. But I just don't get it, that God does not really need me,

Ah! just check my archive, LOL already 2nd half of the year and yet I only have 12 posts. I'm so far behind. Or maybe I had not really move forward for the pass 6 months. Done nothing really impressive. Filled myself up with my job, chasing my targets like a wind, spending money like nobody's business. Still there's a obvious emptiness in me. I could have done greater things, for the greatest Being. Yet, for a life here on Earth small as a particle compared to my God greater than the clusters of galaxies, I worked like cow. Crap, I feel so stupid. Yet, I desire so much to just leave everything and venture out of my small world to do some work for my big God. Haiz, it's easier said than done. Easier said than done.