*+_Praise † Grace_+*

So, busy life caught up again. They caught up for one reason and one reason only: procrastination. It's a lifelong struggle that I have to deal with for the rest of my life. Anyway, it's 5:30AM, 6 more hours to CF Family Camp in Cameron Highland and I can't fall asleep. So I decided to write something. It always help. There are so many things that I'm thankful for. Most of them, I believe, is purely grace, simply because I don't think I deserve them. Internship Project I'm so thankful that my internship project has gotten me so much attention. I had never expected that. The project was by standard simple to the point of childish, yet my employers from the United States of America seem to like it so much, I traveled back to Bose Systems Malaysia (BSM) just to present the project to them. Two days ago, I just received an invitation back to BSM to record a presentation video about the project. The video will be show in our HQ Corporate Office back i...

October 4, 2014 Saturday, Rain 5:30AM to wake up is really early for all of us. Nonetheless we were very excited, to sleep in the car. I was the driver, keeping myself awake seems to be my priority over the driving. Susan was very early. It seems waking up early is normal for her as a school teacher. Chia Chang lives two floors below me. He was awake by the time I finished brushing up. I was so glad to see him getting ready excitedly. Shirleyuen sits comfortably at the back of the car repeatedly said that she can talk to me if I feel sleepy, while she slept through three quarter of the journey. About 10 minute past the scheduled 6:30AM, we said a prayer of journey mercy and off we go! ~~~ It was raining the entire night. The road was wet and my windscreen was fogged. We were getting nervous because of the rain. As we come close to the Jawi toll, the Sun peeps through the rainy cloud shyly with his radiant face. We were so in awe of the sight. It was indeed a hopeful si...

After more than 2 years of wearing my golden key necklace, I finally had to take it off my neck. I was bathing when I realised that golden key is going to fall off the chain any time soon. The connecting loop seems to be corroded and opened. I cannot risk carrying it around. One fine day it will just fall off and gone is my precious gift from my dad. A closer examination at the connecting loop found that the loop is corroded by the repetitive grazing between the loop and the chain. I must be losing some tiny amount of gold every day. 2 years ago when my dad gave it to me, I was so excited. It is the same necklace that my dad wore for years before giving it to me. It was a recognition of my adulthood and complete trust for my freedom. I swore I was going to wear it until my son reach 21 years old. I simply forgot the fact that nothing last forever. I was naive. This simply reminds me of Jesus' Word: “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust des...

Today, I spoke to a friend about building relationships as a Christian. I said that God calls us to be genuine relationship builders, as Jesus Christ is the Relationship Builder between us and God. To do that, it means to courageously open us ourselves and to be mentally vulnerable. That also mean that we will be vulnerable to hurts, betrayal and disappointment. As I chose to follow Jesus, one thing that really makes it hard for me, is to lovingly allow others to act upon their wills, even if it means going against my will. Growing up as a dominant leader, it frustrates and enrages me when my will is denied or my orders are disobeyed. Honestly speaking, I despise people who "puts his hands to the plow and look back". I despise people who pulls out last minute simply because it was inconvenient for them. To these, I feel hurt and betrayed. More often than not, I respond with rage and anger. But this is what it means to be vulnerable, that we may build genuine rela...