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A Way Out

Dear God, What could I have asked more of You? It’s amazing how You work Your miracles in my life. One moment I was like angry with You, the next thing I know, I got a job way better than I could imagine. I’m glad I have You as my God. A God who loves me so so much. You who held me up, and You who always provide a way for me to escape. I was so so tempted to take up the gambling company position. RM1800 + transport allowance up to RM400 + commission and EASY JOB~! Which post-STPM student would not be attracted by such offer? I don’t know about others, but I was seriously gonna fall for it. Thank You who held me on. I talked to Uncle Rodney about it because I struggle within my heart and I wasn’t sure. I wonder what I was about to do is right in Your sight. After being affirmed, I decided to take the less convenient route, to forget the job totally. It was not a smooth sail after that anyway, and I was kinda angry with You at that moment. But I didn’t know it’s Your plan to teach me suc...

Long Lost Passion

The Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader was really like a wake up call. Seeing how they venture into Dark Island to save those lost souls, I questioned myself:" How far would I venture into the darkness of this world and light it up? How much do I trust You in doing so?" Apparently, I lost that confidence in You, mainly because I lost that confidence in myself. I lost that belief that I'm capable of doing many thing with You. I lost that belief that I can actually make a slight difference. So I fell away, let You down, and broke every single promise that I could barely hold on to. I felt unworthy, I felt I have not done enough to please You, and I find it so so hard to do so, so then I gave up. But You. Grace, is outrageously amazing. I could hardly imagine, I could hardly explain it. Undeserved, You patiently awaits me to return, patiently draws me back, cause You'll never let go. Nothing will separate me from Your love and Your grace. Romans 8:38-39 I...