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It's hard to deal with my parents, it's harder to deal with myself. I don't being accused, even if I've done wrong. I've done wrong and I admitted it, then why say it as if I did not admit? My sister do mess up my things but I've never heard them say a single thing about it, even when she did not apologize. But, I'm sorry dad (I can't tell you in the face), I could have deal with this better. It is not easy to be the eldest son, never. I hate that I am the eldest son, for some reason. I hate that I'm the one everyone puts their hope. I hate to carry these responsibility. Sometimes I feel like bursting, but I put it on with a smile. Now I broke out finally, in tears, yet not even one comforting words. God just like to put me into such tight conditions.

Status of the Day: I miss everything about you. I miss your brows that fit your eyes so neatly, I miss your smiles that suit your lips so flawlessly, I miss your body that fits your soul so perfectly. But, of everything about you, I miss you. Dear God, You are my Lord, You are my God, You are my Creator, definitely You know me to the depth my of my heart and my soul. God, You know my desire. I desire someone intimate, who would care, who would share my bitter-sweet. My heart has that someone and You know best. You even know whether I'm lying to myself. You know this desire overflows that it's bursting forth out of my lip for out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. [Matthew 12:34] God, You who know my heart, tell me right from wrong, tell me go or stop. She draws the line so clear, my heart tells me to draw it clear too. I've been living my life with a blur boundary, never was anyone to tell me something is right or wrong. But God, discipline me if You do love me.

Dear God, Thank you for today, another day of life that I do not deserve. Today I'm sitting at home again, not doing my revision. I feel so lazy, because knowledge just won't get into my brains. I've been playing Plant vs. Zombie, what the. Would You give me strength, wisdom, understanding and discernment? That I may focus on my revision. But I know Lord, that good result isn't by my hard work, but by Your grace and mercy. Yet, I know too that You will not let those who work hard in vain O God. I will enjoy everything You gave me, for it is Your gift, and I enjoy them with gratitude. Lord, now I'll do what I can, and I'll leave my trial results to You Lord. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen. Ecclesiastes 3:13 "That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God."

Being distracted always by earthly things and earthly love, this song reminds me of what I should always focus on, God alone.

If Satan could creep into the Catholic Church during the time of Reformation, tell me, isn't it possible that Satan would also has crept into the churches of Protestants? The first sign of Satan's work is division among the churches. Denominations. It has been one of my greatest question to ask and I've been wondering, why denominations? And the fact that I've learn, is that man, limited to our finite wisdom, interprets the Holy Bible differently. It has become my vision, to create an inter-denomination community in my blessed school. In fact, the inter-D atmosphere was already there even before I accepted Christ. With one respecting each other. But the question still lingers, why denominations? Division is the core and division is caused by the church itself. Whenever a stronger group of people rises, the group which has the dominant says, of course, dominates the direction of the Church. And when the minorities, to a critical point, will choose to leave and form anoth